UNGRASPING
for Kobi
You get the feeling you are dragging
an empty suitcase. Even sunlight
is suspicious, something cutting off
your vision, your moth-drawn idea of who
you are, full of flame, full of endless
circumstance, the agonizing dance toward
the mirror: one time you found the mirror
empty or was it just brimming with night, was it two o’clock
in the morning when you realized you had lost
the stick, forgotten the baton
had in fact been passed to you
long ago at the last length
of the race. Who did you lose to? Who
did you disappoint in your breathless
attempt to cross the already tattered ribbon,
knees crushed by the humbling weight
of the rest of you. O the deadly frenzy
of packing it in, beating at time with a knotted
stick, looking always behind you and hoping
that one day your shadow will release
with the crisp grace of a leaf, waving good-bye,
good-bye like a hand, a strong hand
ungrasping all it has strictly clung to,
even the graveyard of the suitcase,
even the ghostliness
of aching to be leaving.
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